Annie in wonderland

This is a post that I wrote in my head last night as I am in the middle of potentially changing supported living houses but staying with the same company and I can’t remember something heartbreaking. I can’t remember the last time someone physically said they love me, or I am doing good or congratulated me for doing something well, as my family often has concern for me, and I don’t see that my actions have consequences for other people. But please don’t feel sorry for me first and that my family and friends do they do it by there actions and this has lead me to some really interesting feelings of knowing I am an adult but at the same time feeling really alone in the world as I see my friendship group that are “ able bodied” go to work and have the arguments about the kids and I really feel like I have missed that boat on having a stable romantic relationship due to me not being able to really trust anyone and that actually includes myself and my support team in the house as they have

 This is a post that is again going to be very personal and it in a way follows my meditation manifestation journey. We see that people have an impact on us and this could be good or bad it wasn’t until I realized something important about myself that I realized why I couldn’t have romantic relationships that work.  But when I was doing a mediation last night after I had come home from a community event to go to sleep it was saying to trust your insight and I will as people need to be able to trust themselves and I see that this not being able to trust myself comes from when I hit someone in anger and that broke off a relationship that could have been happy serious relationships.  Then I got busy with work and study and having ADHD and I good friendship group I wasn’t concerned as I realized with my medical conditions that it would not be a great idea for me to have children and this has been a great decision. But I see that I have company and friendships, but I am lacking a romantic c

The issues of social media.  'The winter of our disconnect.' By Susan Maushart published in 2010   I read a book a while ago called 'The winter of our  disconnect.' It was an experiment in going screen-free for a year her herself and her 3 teens and the results it had on the family. This was back in 2008 so we need to see where we have gone with the internet from there the issues she outlined have only got worse during the pandemic and as the technology has gotten more advanced and the issues around it have got more complex and the complexity of the socio-political landscape has got worse and more polarized due to the internet and that we can be connected from anywhere as we did see the internet used more and more to keep people connected during the pandemic.   However, we saw that this created more issues than it solved. As I will discuss as I have based this post on several of her quotes in the book and I do encourage you to go and find the book and read it an

 Magnus and Alec how to Navigate the Down world  This is a start of a series that is going to seek out what this relationship looks like and what the difficulties in age differences would look like when you look at the different aspects of this relationship they are both reacting to themselves at times. Not what the other person is doing so their reactions can be different between them because of their ages and their experiences in relationships. We see unexpected positive behaviour in their differing love languages as well. Like when Alec gives Magnus a gift and Magnus is at the hunter's moon talking to Mia, he doesn't remember when someone last gave him a present without expecting anything in return. This leads us to see that Alec's love language is a combination of gifts and acts of service. We see Magnus later in the series as time and acts of service. This is where I am reminded of that family dinner I am reminded of, where the others went on a mission at late notice.