Annie in wonderland

 This is a post that is again going to be very personal and it in a way follows my meditation manifestation journey. We see that people have an impact on us and this could be good or bad it wasn’t until I realized something important about myself that I realized why I couldn’t have romantic relationships that work.  But when I was doing a mediation last night after I had come home from a community event to go to sleep it was saying to trust your insight and I will as people need to be able to trust themselves and I see that this not being able to trust myself comes from when I hit someone in anger and that broke off a relationship that could have been happy serious relationships.  Then I got busy with work and study and having ADHD and I good friendship group I wasn’t concerned as I realized with my medical conditions that it would not be a great idea for me to have children and this has been a great decision. But I see that I have company and friendships, but I am lacking a romantic c

  I posted yesterday about being able to trust myself and to manifest the life I want, and I have realized that in writing it I still see myself as an able-bodied person, this at times is true but there is something that I need to accept and that is that I am not ably bodied, and this is “My truth.” My reality is that I am disabled and that short of a miracle there is nothing that is going to change it yes there is trauma around this but I see that I did learn a lot about myself and I am now working towards healing this trauma and this is where I see that I am starting to have more of an interest in what I have always had an interest in but due to my beliefs I thought that they were “evil, or forbidden” then I look at the religions I was in and what they have done historically, and I started to question things and this was the one thing that I see in most organized religions is that you need to accept the narrative that is given to you and I see that this has bled into the mass media