Manifestation and a change in behavors
I recently posted about manifestation meditation and how I thought that I wasn’t a manifestation person and I see that this is something that was tied into something a lot deeper, my thoughts about myself as a person with a disability. I realized that I still think about myself as an able-bodied person and wonder why I constantly get tired and sick when I am pushing myself way too hard. To achieve the things that I want to achieve, and I didn’t realize I give off either one or two vibes, these beings get out of my way I am on a mission, or extremely vulnerable and I am working on having a good solid middle ground as well in this area. It’s because I realized that I am a person with a disability, and I can’t keep up and that it ok. I had what the disability community calls internalized ablism, this isn’t to be confused with a lack of accountability, but it means that I have to regularly re-adjust my expectations of what I can do and what time frames I can do it in. I also see that